Possibly The Biggest Mistake Of My Life..

After talk of garden shed delivery men and afternoon tea, I would just like to add that I am possibly making the biggest mistake of my life.
I have agreed to meet frenchy tomorrow afternoon as he is in London for a meeting.
I have no idea what I am doing.
I am a complete fool.
But I am [...]

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Screaming Silence

I didn’t sleep again last night.  I lay in bed with my usual routine of watching a movie on my laptop.  The movie finished and as I switched off my computer I knew that sleep hadn’t found me yet.  I knew that it was no-where near and was definitely taking its time to come and [...]

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Frontal Lobotomy

I don’t know who needs one more, me or him.
After several thoughts, yesterday evening spent with my friend and a movie later, I have come to these conclusions about the should I meet with him, should I not dilemma.
They are as follows;

There are times when my thought processes have warranted a lobotomy, or maybe a half lobotomy, but I’m not [...]

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Reflecting.

Well, after waking up this morning, I’m not entirely sure how I feel about spilling out my life on these pages.
I feel like an open book, an open wound.  I have feelings of paranoia.  Everything I write about I am not sharing with anyone else.  I’m hoping that it is going to do me some [...]

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Engagement Ring.

What do I do with it now?
This ring.
It sits on my dressing table.  Camouflaged by bottles of perfume so I can’t see it.  
I know it’s there.  
I know I could put it away. Hide it in a never, never drawer.
 I don’t know why I haven’t yet.
So it just sits there, quietly. Untouched.  Ignored.  Discarded.
Like an [...]

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